sawaddikah...






Monday, July 30, 2012

akak2...

sawaddikah...

tiba2...ng asa rndu kah...
rndu si adik bongsu...
iyela...dia nieh...sgt manja ngn ng...

"akak2...knapa akak suka wat makan2...kalo akak blik...ada2 je y akak nk wat..."
"knapa akak wat? akak wat untk sapa...?"
"untuk adik2 akak..."
"sebab?..."
"adik2 akak sgt kuat makan...mcm adik..."
"yola...dh bibi kuat mkn kn?...saltwo akak wat tu..."
"akak??..."
"ya..."
"knapa akak wat bnyk sgt dadih...?..adik bilang...semuanya 34 cwn..."
"adik mkn bnyk x nty...?"
"akak jgn jual tau..."
"knapa...?"
"adik xnk...akak wat mcm nk g juai ja...."
"xdala...akak wat bnyk cz adik kn kuat..."
"makan...adik tkot adik xkenyang..."

ni...perbualn ng ngn adik msa ng tuang dadih y ng wat ke dlm gelas2...kali nieh...ng wat perisa mix fruit...kalo diikotkn...ng nk wat jelly strawberry...tapi...msa ng shopping kt aneka mall...xda la plak strawberry....so...ng tkar plan...dadih pn ok gk...cz si adik bongsu ng nieh...xmkn dadih...

ngee...dia xmkn...tp ng nk wat...
cz ng tahu...dia ni choosy...
mcm ng gk la...
mayb dlu cz dia penah beli dadih dkat skul n pasa mlm...
tp pas tu...xbeli lg...dia kta x yummy...
aduhai...mkn pn memilih...
mau xkecik kn...
adik ng nieh...7 taun...tp mcm bdk 4 5 taun ja dia...
sgt kecik...
n lam clas...dia la pling kecik...
bdk kecik bnyk ckp...ntah mcm sapa...wink2...

"akak...dadih kn? adik...xmkn..."
"akak tahu...tp adik kna rasa...akak wat...pnoh kasih syng..."

then...ng bg adik rasa...

"akak2...two thumbs up..."
"hooray2...adik ska...yummy2..."
"eh...tp kn akak...knapa y akak wat asa ken...xmcm y adik beli dkat skul..."

"ya ka...y akakt wat asa gena..yummy..."

"sdap...adik ska...sngt sdap...adik nk mkn bnyk2..."

bes kn lyn kerenah bdk2...yela...bes...bibi sgt manja ngn ng...bila ng blik...dia muuah ng...muaah dahi, pp kiri...pipi knan...rangkul pinggang ng...
sgt manja...
sma gk bila ng tdo...n bru bgn tdo...
dia muuah ng...

ng ingt lg...ng kta...

"bibi asyik cium kakak...nty akak saham jtoh mcm na...hbs dh nieh pipi akak...da sorng budak...cium xlepas2...."

"biarla...adik syng akak..."

bahagianya...
ngeee...udah2 ng...smbng wat keja...

tataa...sawaddikah....

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Simplex Method??

wink2...xskanya maths...
simplex method...
knapa la ng mcm xready lg ja nk blaja topik nieh...
ng tgok ketas..
hmm...blank...
kosong...
oh no...
matila gney...
bila ng nk start blaja nieh??
malasnya...
xska simplex...
sptotnya kna tkr nama jd complex method...
no more simplex...

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Khop Khun Kah...

dear sweet corner...
tahu? ng hepy mark2 kah...
ng bahagia...ng really2 hepy...
ng bersyukur...ng gembira...ng tharu...

khop khun kah papa ngn mama phi...
khop khun kah khon di...

stiap y blaku ada hikmah...
dan mgkin ini kn...??

"phi kah...ng sedih phi wat gini kah..."

ni msg terakhir  y ng antq kt phi...
...sejujurnya ng merajok...
ng kecik ati...lam bnyk2 perkara...bnyk2 hal...

las2 ng busykn dri...wat itu ini...
tp...every moments...ng thinks about phi...
ng cares phi...

wlupn kita bkn lg kapel...
tiada lg ikatan...

"sbb phi rasakn ini y terbek...
phi nk...kita fokus study...
dan jodoh di tgn Tuhan..."

andai kta ditakdirkn bsama...
kita xkn ke mana...
jauh seribu batu...akn bsma jua...
ng berdoa agar kita akn bsma...
ng rak phi...tiada y len...
dan xkn kah...

beep2...tiba si black berbunyi...miu2...da msg dr phi...
ng tkjot...malah ng xcaya ngn mata sndri kah...
yola...ng chats...phi xlyn...
ng antq msg sik bls...
tp tup2...lewat mlm...
tiba2 phi antq msg...
ng ingatkn phi dh zzzz....
pg kn keja??
ngeee...

"syg...jgn kecik ati nah?...phi bz ja kap...phi rak ng aih..."

syg? phi pgl ng syng...ng seakn2 xcaya kah...cz lma sgt...sgt2 lma phi xpgl ng gney...menitis air mata ng...ng...ntah...gembira...tp lam msa y sma ng sebak kah...

"kah..."
"ratrisawat nah thirak.."
"phi kah..?"
"kap.."
"ng celaru lok kah...asa stres lok...otak pn xleh pkir..sok ng kma bntng assignment.."
"dai nieh.."
"sebab phi ek? khothud mark2 nah..."
"tiada..bukan kah..."
"ayo...rhatla nah syng? xmau stress k? phi ada brita bek ni. mesti wat ng tdo nyenyak mlm ni.."
"berita? gena ng nk tdo kah..sok present edu...ng lom prepare g kah..."
"ayo...bnyk mai nan? pho ngn mea phi dh trima ng...waa, dpa soh jga ng bek2. dh lulus dh. yea!..."
"hah...?ng mimpi ek phi...? pho ngn mea kta apa kah...?"

phi kah...ng bersyukur...ng tharu kah phi...sbb papa ngn mama trima ng...soh phi jga ng bek2...ng really hepy kah...dan ng asa ng la org y pling bahagia dkat dunia ni...
msa phi gtau...ng xkeruan kah...ng di chai...mark2...ng ingtkn ng mimpi...hnggakn ng tepuk2 pipi ng...tp sakit...ngee...that means...ng xmimpi...dan ini realiti...air mata ng mglir...ng tharu...ng bersyukur kah...kerna papa ngn mama restui hbngn kita...tp apa2 pn...mcm phi ckp kn...blaja dlu...kita pljr...blaja dlu...
ngs syng phi...
syng phi kah...
bg ng...phi sorng kwn y sgt bek...phi teman ng,,,kekasih ng...mlh,,,kdng2 phi mcm sorng abg y sygkn adik pompuannya...y risaukn dri ng...
wink...thats why ng pgl phi mr.lion...phi sgt grng bila ng degil...
ng memang pn degil kn...
umo dh angka 2...tp majok mcm bdk2 lg...
malah...kng2 phi mcm big boss...mcm papa...
jp papa panda 2 la...ng dh da papa panda kt blik...phi jd panda 2...

khop khun kah mama ngn papa phi...
ng jnji pd dri...
ng busaha jd y terbek untk dri ng...untk pho ngn mea ng...untk mama ngn papa phi...dan untk phi...
ng berusaha...dan ng akan pastikn...
ng pn bleh terbng mcm brung di udara kn...??










Last Minutes...

sawaddikah...

ikotkn...dr smlm lg kah ng nk tlis blog...
tp ng busy smlm...ngn edu...
ng skit pala...then asa stres...
yela...bila skit pala...ng memang xleh wat apa2...
kosong ja otak...

preparation ng krng...
bru pg td study...prepare untk present...
ni lah y dikatakn last minute kn...
promise...ng xnk wat lg...
eww jauh2 sikap nieh...

 rney...presents ng cma dpt 25 over 30 ja...
that means 83%...
bg ng...sepatotnya...ng knala usaha bg dpt 26 above...

tp...hmm...xpala nah...
bersyukur la nah...
usaha lg nty...

kali nieh...ng akui...ng xprepare...
khamis present...ari isnin bru tgk soaln tgsan...
alahai...ng2...

tp this week mmg busy kn?
sgt busy...dan bleh dikatakn tiap2 ari ng tdo lam koi 2 pg...
dh la tu...jgn sdih2...
usaha lg next time...
msh ada peluang dan ruang kn??
optimis....


Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Wink2...

sawaddikah...

miu2...ng dahaga sudah...
saba ng saba...
2 jam lebih lg ja kn...
two la...len kali bgn awai...
sahur...
wink2...ng pn xtahu knapa pg nieh...
lngsng xsedar...
slalunya...around koi 4 tau koi 5 ng slalu tjga...
tp kali nieh...fuyooo...ngee...
mayb ng letih kn?
cz 3 4 ari dh xckup tdo...
twola...asyk sibuk ngn assignments ja...

kdng2...tlalu bnyk sebab kita melakukan sesuatu...
dan kdng kala...we do something...tp...no reason...
bila ada niat...ada hrpn...
ng asa...apa2 y kita hrpkn...xjauh...
mampu untk kita kecapi...

perubahan...
ng caya...manusia pd dsrnya bek kn...
kepercayaan...penting...
keyakinan + usaha = hasil...

ng hopes apa2 y ng lakukn skrng...
mbuahkn hasil...
cz bg ng...bkn mudah untk berubah...
dan blom tlambat untk berubah...
sma ada mengubah dri sndri mahupn mendorong seseorng untk berubah...

dorngan penting...
dan sgt2 penting...
iyela...
sbab kita nieh human being...

bkn kerna gnjrn ataupn pujian...
ng percayakn pd usahanya...
ng doakn...dia berjaya....
ng di sini...sbgai sorng kwn...ng doakn dia bjaya...
moga Tuhan kuatkn atinya...berkati hdup...
ng yakin pd dri dia...
sbb msia...pd dasarnya bek...
dan perubhn bgntng pd dri sndri..
andai ada usaha...nescya kejayaan akan menyusul...
permudahkan urusannya...
"satuk..."

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Ng loves them

sawaddikah...
today ng asa hepy kah...
asa bhagia...mark2 lei...

ng bahagia...
sebab ng ada ayh dan mak y menyayngi ng...
mberi kasih syng kpd ng...
dan sntiasa beri kta2 smngat bila ng downs...
ng syng mereka...dan ng sgt bersyukur kerna jd ank mak dan ayah...
ng jnji ng akan jd ank y bek...

ng syng famili ng...famili kembngn gk...
ng loves them...
bagi ng...famili plng penting...
apa2pn famili dlu...
kn...??
ng syng abg...ng cma ada sorng abg...dan ng syng dia sgt2...
bg ng...dia abg y terbek...paling bek untk ng...
y sabar mlyn kerenah adiknya y ntah apa2...ng la tu...ngeee...
ingt lg...gara2 ng majok..kurng dri lam blik...
abg msok2...dukung ng...
dhla ng f4 msa tu...
ng tkit sgt...tkot jtoh...cz ng bukannya rngn pn...
dan abg kecik ja...
ngeee...
tu la...majok lg len kali...

ng syng datuk...syng nenek...
mcm mna nieh...
atuk ng sgt ng kawen ngn org kelate...
aduhai...ng xpromise nah...
cz....lalallaalala...rahsia...

ng syng saudara mara ng...syng sepupu ng...

then...ng syng phi...syng famili phi kah...
ng rak phi...my only one...
xmgkin ng cinta org len slain phi...
bg ng...cinta itu abadi dan hakiki...
wlupn...ng kwn rapat ng laki...
tp ati ng...cma untk phi kah...
untk phi khon diau...
tiada y len...
ng syng mama n papa phi...
ng syng p sau dan adk phi kah...
mama..bek...wlupn mama tgas...
ng tharu bila ng skit...mama ngn p sau tnya keadaan ng...
papa pn...
ng bahagia kah...

ng syng ira dan ernie...
mereka...shbt sejati ng...
ng rindu mereka...
lg2 ira...tputus hbngn kitaorg...
ng arapkan...agar Tuhan menemukn ng ngn ira lg...
ng syng dia...
untuk ernie...bek2 sna...studi bek2...
bg ng...ira dan ernie...shbt sejati...

then...sahabat2 ng...
alin...wawa...amin...hafiez...shadah...nela...
ng syng korng...
korng sgt bek ngn ng...
bg ng...korng sahabat...
shbt ngn rakan xsma tau...

ng syng kwn2 ng...kenaln2...
ng syng sume brng2 ng...
terutamanya teddies...

ng syng sume org...
sebab...hdup ini bkn untuk membenci...
kita syng orng len...mudah-mudahan...
org akn syng kita..
"satuk..."







Saturday, July 21, 2012

Selamat Berpuasa...

sawaddikah...
today...start posa dh kn...
kpd rkn2 y muslims...ng ucapkn camat bposa...

ngeee...kali nieh ng pn posa kah...
sja? hmm...xla kah...
cz ng da reason y tersendri...
dan ng asa...xperlukn kn ng cter...
wink2...

mlsnya ng nk sahur pg td...
thanks mr. i cz kejot ng pg td...

"halo..."
"halo..."
"bgn sahur nong..."
"mlsnya ng nk bgn...ng asa kenyang...ng xnk sahur..."
"ha...yala tu...bgn kaih...g sahur..."
"kalo ng xsahur agk2 ng lapa x nty..?
"lapa...tgkla..rasala nty...skrg bgn...dan g sahur...xda pj kn rney..?.."
"yup...tiada...cuti kn.."
"oo...cuti??..."
"haish...ng means...ipg cti...bkn.."
"tau...g la mkn apa2...biskut ka...minum secukupnya..."
"yup..."

ikotkn ati mahu sja ng tdo blik pg td...
tp pkir2...xkn la ng xleh kn...
gpon ng dh promise...
xbek tarik blik kta2...
wlupn...tpulang pd ng...

anyway..thanks noh...cz grak ng pg td...

mcm xcaya ja kn...ng joins posa...ng gtau kwn2...sume xnk caya...
so...so...so sad...
ngeee....mengadanya...
ye la..cz ng kn jnis kuat mkn..
mkn2 je...

td...ng gtau phi...kta ng posa...
wink2...phi tkjot...
soaln pertma y phi tnya...
btoi?ng posa...?ng nk tahan ke tu...?
alahai...nmpk sgt ng nieh kuat mkn...
xnk menafikn...ngee...cz ng mmg gtwo pn...

tp tu la...hehe...pas sahur ng tdo blik...
ng sahur ckit ja...
mkn muffin..mkn buah...
then minum vitagen n air kosong...
two jak...

then...zzzz....tdo blik...
bgn2...koi 9 pg...pedih sgt perut ng...
yola...dh ng mkn ikot time kn...
slalunya ng breakfast koi 7 pg...then 10 pg...minum2...
take lunch...minum ptng...
dinner n supper...
6 bkali shari ng mkn...
bila smpi msa dia...lgu do re mi....
ngeee...
saba nh ng...rapa jam lg ja...

teringtkn kta2 dila...smangt la plak...
dila kta..."bleh je...xkn bdk 6 taun dpt full...nong xdpt kn..mse ni la kta nk rasa cmne org2 afrika, palestin..kelaparan..xde mknan...bru la kita tau btapa bersyukurnya kitaboleh 2...ptg nty kita bkak sma2..."

kn...ng umo 20...xkn xbleh...?even bdk 6 taun pn bleh...ng pn bleh...wlupn kdng2 ng lebih dr bdk 6 taun g...

sekian sjala coretan ng kali nieh...

sawaddikah...
camat posa...
jgn curi2 mkn ye...



The Day You Went Away..

sawaddikah...
gud monink sume...
have a nice day nah...

tiba2...ng teringtkn lgu the day you went away...
ng skak kah lgu nieh...
cz mcm hdup ng...
da kaitan ngn hdup ng...
alahai ng...dngr lagu pn menghayati stiap baris...
stiap bait kta2...
itula kn...

ni lirik die..


[verse 1]
when i was dreaming 'bout you baby

you were dreaming of me
call me crazy, call me blind
to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

[pre-chorus 1]
did i lose my love to someone better
and does she love you like i do
i do, you know i really really do

[chorus]
well hey
so much i need to say
been lonely since the day
the day you went away
so sad but true
for me there's only you
been crying since the day
the day you went away

[verse 2]
i remember date and time
september twenty second
sunday twenty five after nine
in the doorway with your case
no longer shouting at each other
there were tears on our faces

[pre-chorus 2]
and we were letting go of something special
something we'll never have again
i know, i guess i really really know

[chorus]
the day you went away
the day you went away

[pre-chorus 1]
[chorus]

[bridge]
why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
how could i carry on
the day you went away
cause i've been missing you so much i have to say
been crying since the day
the day you went away

the day you went away
the day you went away

for me there's only you...

tsiratnya kn makna...
yap...mmg pn...
udahla...jgn lyn sgt perasaan..
wat keja...
da planning kn??
hope it will works...

sawaddikah....



Friday, July 20, 2012

Sweet Friday...

sawaddikah...
miu2...today...friday...
slalunya ng blik umah kah...
tp kali nieh x...
cz assignment literasi bhsa kna submit isnin nieh...
keja group kn...
kalo ind...confirm ng blik...
xpala...stay kt ipg...
noh...??

ngeee...pujuk dri la...
yela...semestynya...
td ng g lib lah...
hepy...cz...at least ng does something useful...
xla msa tbuang gtwo jak...
2 3 hari nieh...ng asa...ng x manage time properly...
cz tdo petang...
then mimpi buruk...
asal tdo ptng ja...pala asa brat...
pening2...n then kalo ng tdo pnang...
bjam2...kdng2 smpi 3 4 jam...
lamanya...
kn??
that's why...kalo bleh sdaya upaya ng nk elakkan...
wat notes ka...mind map ka...
wat sesuatu y xmembebankn otak...
iyela...cz tgah hari atau ptng...
x sesuai sgt kn untk study...
kalo wat lthn maths...ok la kot...

mimpi??
aduhai...knapala skunk ng asyik mimpi bruk ja...
slalu...ng xmimpi...
jrng mimpi...
mlh lam setaun leh blng brapa kali ja ng mimpi...
tp belakangn ni...ada2 sja...
mgkin ng letih kn??
pj 3 ari berturut-turut...
n then mlm ng tdo...agk lewat..koi 1..koi 2 bru tdo...
ni tara xda sgt keja...
kalo da keja bnyk ntahla...

smlm tdo ptng...lma gla ng tdo...dr koi 1 hingga koi 4...
tu pn tjaga cz ikhwan antq msg...
kalo x...ntahla koi rapa ng bgn...
asa berat pala...brat mata...
ewww...mlsnya...

td mea kol...
rndunya kt mea...
mea tnya ng blik ke...
xpala...tngu...minggu dpan blik...
yay2...saba ye ng...!!

td ng minx izin mea nk g qb...
ntah...tiba2 asa nk g qb...
makanan...bnyk...n yummy2...
kuatnya ng mkn...
ngeee...
ng gtau kta ng nk g sorng...
mea tnya knapa??
ng kta sja...nty blik skali ngn kwn...
ng nk wat keja dlu..b4 g...
n then blik japg...rest kejap...
n smbng wat keja...
ng hopes apa2 y ng rncng rney menjadi...
planning smlm...dh...really hepy...

k la...sekian sja coretan ng...
sawaddikah...
ng sayang sume...

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Zylo Kembali Bernyawa...



sawaddikah...
miu2...si zylo bnyawa sudah...
ng ingtkn mamat tu xnk cas zylo dh...
cian dia..."koma sementara waktu..."

hehe...da gk noh lgu two...
mls cas hp smpi bhari2...

hinggakn si didi kna bkerja keras...
tu la...ng soh boh sim dg kt didi...
phi xnk...nk zylo gk...
kn lg bgos kalo didi...
mana2 je la...

apa2 pn...thanks kah...

mula2...ng ingtkn sorng tu...
xnk cas hp cz mls top up...
rupanya2...dia tu top up rm 30...
x expired pn kdit...

tp kenapala xgna untk msg...
n kol??ngeee...
kn free msg...
phi xska free kot...wink2??
pkir lg ng...

anyway...snyumla nh zylo...kembali bnyawa...
tp zylo bleh snyum ke??
boleh kn...didi bleh ya...
ni lah...kisahnya...
didi n zylo...
comey kn nama y ng berikan...???
lalalallalaaa...
semestynya....


Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Kumbang...



sawaddikah...
dan ratrisawat untk mereka y sdh tdo...

ng xdpt nk tdo kah...
wink2...cz bnyk keja...
ikotkn ati...mahu saja ng plok teddy bear n pejam mata...
n tros berdreaming...
zzzzzz....

tp assignment..."PENGHALANG...TEMBOK BESAR CHINA"...wink2

ng bru ja kah pas wat assignment...
two pn...xsiap2 g...
lmanya ng wat kn...?
labi2 btoi...hehe...

yola...nk karang ayat...nk pastikan da connection...
nk pastikan in correct path...
bkn mudah kn...??
hehe...alsn btoi...
ng...orng y slalu bg alsn org mls...ng nieh??
ngeee...

back to the story...
ntah knapa tiba2 ng teringatkn kisah kumbang...
mayb...cz sma ngn hdup ng kot...
"kumbang bkn seekor...
dan...bunga gk bukan sekuntum..."

slalu..ng ktakn pd kwn2...kita pompuan...ada plhn...
choices...
lam apa2 jua...kita...sbgai msia leh memilih kn...

tup2...ati kecil ng ni...mengatakn bhwa...
bukan lam sume hal...

dan ada kalanya...kita xckp xserupa bikin...

ng admits kah...ng begitu...
bila ati besar menafikan...
ati kecil...tetap ngn pendirian...
mengatakan...itu tidak benar...

ckp...xserupa bikin...

"kumbang bkn sekor...dan bunga bkn sekuntum.."
ya...mmg benar...
TAPI...
andai kumbang itu y kita nk...andai bunga itu y kita mahu...
xakan sma ngn y len...
sbb itu adalah plhn kita...
itu y kita mahukn...
ng cya...kita mengharap...
tp kita tidak tahu apa y akan blaku...
kita cuma merancng...dan 
Tuhan y menentukan...

namun, xslh kn berharap...
xslh ln pasang angan2...
xslh kn kita pinta pd y Esa...
dan tros berusaha...
kerna...usaha itu tangga kejayaan...
di mana ada usaha...di situ ada hrpn...
"satuk.."

ng mengharap...dan tros mharap...
moga Tuhan lembutkn atinya dan dia...

lembutkan atinya...kuatkn atiku dan dia...
berikanlah petunjuk kepada hambamu y kerdil ini...

tersiratnya...
kn? kompleks...
hmm...biarla ng sja tahu apa y ng mksdkn...



Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Thanks God..


sawaddikah...
today...ng ngn kwn2 g unit peperiksaan...
tgk pointer...
ng hepy kah...
ng bersyukur sgt2...
pertama...cz ng lulus sume papers...

slagi xtahu results slagi tu la xtenang...
iyela...cz ritwo...
exam punya la susah...
then ng asa ng "ko" ritwo...
2 papers...
ng tkot edu ngn maths...
falsafah n maths knowing numbers...
ntah apa y ng tlis msa exam...

thanks god...
ng hepy cz ng lulus sume papers..
n then target ng untk dpt pointer 3.7 ke atas tercapai..
ng bersyukur kah...

dan ng btoi2 xsangka kali nieh ng dpt 3.96...
ng really hepy kah...
dan ng janji...ngn dri ng...
ng kn lipatgandakn lg usaha...
bg dpt 4 flat...
"satuk..."

thanks god...

thanks lecturers...cz ajar ng...didik ng...

thanks pho ngn mea...cz slalu beri ng kta2 semangat...
sntiasa di sisi ng bila ng downs...

thanks phi...cz beri smangt untk ng...kta2 nasihat..

thanks kwn2 sume...
cz korng bnyk ajar ng...bila ng xtahu pe2...
korng y tnjuk...ajar ng...

melangkah setapak lg ke hdpn...
troskn usaha...lipatgandakn usaha...
bkn hanya stakat sni saja...

"life is a long journey..."

perjalanan seribu batu...bermula ngn 1 langkah....

Monday, July 16, 2012

Ngeee...

sawaddikah...


hepynya ng...brat ng nek 3 kg...
wink2...gemoknya...hehe...
ng hepy...cz berat dh angka 4...bkn 3 lg...bye2...
yola...dh la ng target...
akhirnya...tercapai...
hooray...
hehe...mcm bibi lak...adok bongsu ng...
asal hepy ja..."hooray"...
tp...ng still underweight g...
xskanya...hehe...
usaha g...
tmbh g 2 atau 3 kilo...
bg bmi...ideal...
saba ye ng...
ng really happy today...

Misunderstanding...


sawaddikah...

ng nk start gena ek...?hmmm mcm ni la noh...dr a smpi z...rney...pg2 pn ng dh bad mood dh...tension...yola...ng bgn koi 7.20 n then nk g mandi...tup2...rambai xda air...oh no....how come...dhla pg td ng “ko”....mslh btoi pompuan...3 ari sdh gney...n again ng xdpt tdo...n then, bgn2...air lak xda...pagi2...dh tension..

pg2...pjuk dri...ok...ng tries tenang...n then g nona...mandi...nsb la rney just da tutorial ja...koi 9...xla ng kalut2 kn...then...blik2...ng wat mind map untk edu...b4 blik...at least ng does something...xla asa msa tbuang kn...then koi 12.30 ng kuar dr ipg...ng teringn nk beli pizza...so ng g qb...sorng2...tahu?punya la lma ng tngu bus...nek2 kna usik ngn pak cik drebar bus...pak cik tu kta...x g qb...ng wa...kn g qb bus ni...pak cik tu kta queenbays...ok fine...long form...dh la kna dri...amai sgt org...malangnya rney...da2 je...

smpi2 qb...ng jln2 kt bwh...bhgn food...ingtkn nk g border...tp tkot lewat blik umah lak...so...ng lilau2...n then ng ingt btoila kot ni...kdai y kwn ng beli pizza dlu...eh...msa ng order kn...knapa ek...hrga xsma...nvm la...dh ng order kn...3 spicy chicken n 1 diavola...msa total up...sumenya RM 55.60...wink2...something wrong sdh...nsb duit kt purse da td...hehe...msa tu ng pkir knapa eh...?oo...mayb rney full price kot...bkn half...nsb ng beli y 7inch...kalo ng beli y 9inch...asanya lbk krng seratus...xpala...mayb ritwo...da special price kot...dh la ng xbesa g lg...n then rney lak...ng sorng2 ja...

then...msa siap...ng msok lam jusco...jln2 kt sna...ng ingtkn nk beli sushi...cz adik ng y drjh 5 tu dia meme suka sushi...len kali ja la...cz,,,famili...dia ja y ska...org len xsgt...ng lgla...xmam tros...

pastwo...tahu???...ng jmpa kdai pizza y kwn ng mksdkn...huhu...msa tu sgtla upset...yola...dh y ng dh beli ni rm 13.90 each...then 4...so times 4...y kt kdai nieh...rm 4.99 till 6.99...hrga around tu jak...my heart is broken...hehe...overnya ng...yola...tkaku ng...nsb y ng order xsma ngn y firuz beli ritwo...kalo x...lgla ng asa...asa...”kna rebus”...

ng ingtkn ng ok...tp x...muncung sedepa...tros xda mood...tp g kejap ja...pastwo ng ok...ng pjuk dri sebenarnya...xpala...mayb y ni len kan...gpon...ng beli untk famili, famili bapa saudra n datok ngn nenek...sumenya 32 slices...ok la tu kn...

n then...crita xtmt di sini...msa blik ng letih2...xda tenaga...yela...lg2 blkngn nieh ng losts appetite...ng mkn ckit ja...msa blik...nek bus...peningnya...ng tetdo...then...ng kol mak...soh mak pesan ayh jemput ng kt shahab...ng xok rney...lbh bek ayh jemput kn??...then..ng tdo...msa nk smpi...ng hntq msg kt mak kta ng smpi koi 5.20....

tapi...no response...mak xbls msg...msa nk dkat2 smpi ng kol lg...kol mak...adik kta...ayh g keja...mak g keja...xda sapa kt umah...abng pn keja...n then adk y f5 pn xda....

sdhnya ng...msa tu...ng pkir...confirm...mak n ayh lupa...keja2...sibuk ngn keja...merajok sdh ng...yela...cz msa cuti sem ritwo ayh ngn mak sibuk sgt...almost xda msa...that’s why ng kta cuti sem ritwo...sgt membosankn....cz...ng mcm alone ja...sorng2 kt umah...bila ng blik...mak tnya...knapa ngn ng??...ng kta...ayh ngn mak keja je...ikotkn ati...mahu saja ng luahkn apa y tbuku di ati...hinggakn one day...ng kta...mak ngn ayh...jgnla keja sgt...rehat sma...kalo jtoh skit mcm mana...lam ati...”anak...nk mak ngn ayh ada msa bsma anak...”

tu la...pendam lg kn...bila gney...merajok...cz y lama2 pkir lg...smpn lam ati...kn mbebankn perasaan? ng2...hmmm...memalukan...nsb ng dok sorng...n then org len tdo lam bus...xla diorng pasan kta air mata ng menitis...aduhai...sensitif btoi...bila ni ng nk besar??wink2...nsb kejap ja...pastwo ng tries optimis...tp optimis la sgt...

smpi2 kt shahab...ng cri ayah...tp tiada...ada org len je...ng kol lg...kol ayh bntk kali...tp ayah xakat2...pastwo...xdpt dihubungi...ayh xpenah begini...slalu...bila ng kol...ayh akat ja...xpenah ayh xakat...then, ng kol mak...mak xbwk hp...adik y bongsu akat...again ng tnya...mana mak?mana ayh...mana abg??...dia kta sume g keja...sedihnya...pastwo ng kta...”kn akak pesan kt mak soh ayh amik akak dkat shahab...”...”akak pn da msg gk...mak bca x msg akak..?”..”akak kol ayh pn xdpt2...”

adik kta...x...mak xbca msg...ayh g keja...apa lg ng...mau xslh fhm...yola...ng merajok...mrh...sedih...perasaan bcmpor baur...ng asa nk ngs ja...tp ng tahan...malula kt org kalo ngs...kt terminal bus amai org kn...

sebek ja ng letak gagang...tiba2...ng dngar sora ayh...ayah kta...”anak kol sapa td...”
dan saat y memalukan....ng geleng2...tros ngs...malu...ngs xhenti2...smbil tu guna 2 2 tgn seka air mata...mcm bdk2 ja...smbil kta...

“anak...ingatkn ayah xamik anak dkat shahab...”

msa ng ngs,,,cian ayh...dia pn serba slh dh...maafkn ank...ank jnji xnk gney lg...be more matured n avoid childish attitudes..

“anak kol ayah...bnyk kali...tp ayah lngsng xakat...anak kol mak...mak tngai hp...mak g keja...anak tnya adik...adik kta...sume org g keja...termasok ayh...that’s why anak ingtkn mak ngn ayah tlalu sibuk berkerja hinggakn lupa ank...xda msa nk jemput anak...lg2...adik kta...mak xbca pn msg y anak kta ank smpi koi 5.20...mgkin sebab ni...anak slh fhm..”

“xkn la ayah xamik anak...y ayah x akat fon...sebab hp ayah b3 hbs..dan kalo xjmpa anak...ayh ingtkn nk kol guna public...mak xlupa...mak gtau ayh soh smpi sni awai lg...koi 5.15...anak dh lma smpi?...jam brapa skrng?ayah lewat?...”

“tidak...anak pn baru ja smpi...anak ingt nk nek bus sudah...ingatkn mak ngn ayh lupa..”

malunya ng...seriously ng malu...xtahu la...mcm na ng nk usir perangai kebudakn-budakn ni...ckit2 ngs...ng ni...sensitif...lg2 ngn org y plng ng syng lam hdup...

pntng slap ckit...sama da tindkn atau kta2...ati kecil ni...cpat je...tahu kn apa y ng mksdkn...duhai ati...Tuhan...kuatkanlah ati ng...

ng syng mak ngn ayh...lam hdup ni...ng cma da seorng mak...seorng ayh...ng syng mereka...



Thursday, July 12, 2012

Coretan...

today...
ng...ntah...mcm2 perasaan ng kah...
da ska...da xska...
y xskanya cz ng skit2 bdn...sume mcm xkena ja...
dan again...smlm ng xdpt tdo...
arap2...ok la kot...
ckpla ckit2 kn...

ntah tiba2 ng teringtkn phi...
2 ari sdh phi diam ja...
mayb letih keja kot...
nk gerak phi keja...tp ng tkot mama tegor phi...
sdngkn bg ng...xmenyusahkan pn...
xslh kn sorng adik gerak abg g keja?...
wink2...nk je phi dtng penang...
papa keja kt penang..
lepak dkat ofis papa...
n then jmpa ng...
demandnya ng...
kalo ikotkn ati...nk kah...
tp phi mesti xnk kn...
phi sibuk...
xpala...optimis...

rndu momo...rndu honey...
ng ingt nk beli bku...
untk dijadikan diari...
tp xdpt g...cerewetnya ng...
ngeee...

rndu ring...
sal ring gk...
ng blik umah ritwo..
mak ngn ayh tgk jari manis ng...
n mak tnya mana cincin....
tgagap2 ng jwb...
ng xtahu kah nk jwb apa...
cz ng...ntahla...
mak tnya ng xok ke ngn phi...ng break ke...?
hmm...nk jwb gena kn...
cz ng ngn phi cma xnk ada apa2 ikatan...nk fokus stdy dlu...
ng tiada org len...begitu gk phi...
nk tgk ati budi...jernihkan hbngn...
tanpa kapel...

"may God bless phi...berkati hdup phi..."

mgkin ini y terbek bg 2 2 phak...
stiap y blaku da hikmah...
tp apa2 pn...perasaan ng cma pd phi...
dlu, kini dan slama-lamanya...
ng arapkan y tbek antra kita...
"satuk..."

ha...amazing...
taun ni ng tekad nk posa...
wink...
"kontrak..."
ng nk pastikan ng menang...
ng dh promises ngn kwn ng kta...

dia cbr ng...
kalo ng posa penuh...
ng means...xkira cuti...ngeee
dpt hadiah...
"ada udang di sebalik mee rupanya..."

tapi...ng kn jenis kuat mkn...
mkn2 ja...
nk thn ke x eh...tah2
xsmpi half dia...akat bndra putih pa...
apa2 pn...ng xnk mengalah...
ha...n nty kita tgk yar...
sapa menang....

sal sbe...kali nieh agk jauh ng sbe...
ng gtau ayh ngn mak ng nk sbe ngn hafiez...
mak ngn ayah bg...
ng tnya...sk jitra 3 kn jauh...
anak nk wat gena..?
ank??
hehe...yup...ng mbahasakn dri gtwo bila ckp ngn parents...
ayah kta...ayah hntr...
jauhnya ayah...kcian ayah...
ayah kta...xpa...seminggu ja...
ayh bleh hntr...
hepynya ng...
tsenyum ng...

td...jhtnya ng...
ng kol hafiez...cz nk confirmkan ngn dia...
ng ugut...
"jgn sesekali tkr alamat...confirm tau..."

haha...tbek punya kwn...
ugut kwn...
mentang2..hafiez bek...
bila ng da mslh...nkkn pertolngan...
dialah antra y mbantu...

thanks hafiez...
cz bek ngn ng...
dr dlu smpi skrng...
ng arap...persahabatn kita akan kekal smpi bila2...
n nty kawen...jemput ng sma...
haha...kalo ng ckp dpan dia...mesty dia blushing...

skian ajela coretan untk kali ni...
sawaddikah...
ng syng sume...




Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Favourite Song...

arunsawat kah...
gud monink...
smile2...mile2 k?
tuchum2 slalu...

today...clas starts koi 10.30...
tp ng dh bgn n dh bsiap...
nk smbng tdo blik...
xnkla...bter ng wat keja kn...
ng ingt pas ng tlis post ni kt blog...
ng nk do some works...
mayb literasi bahasa...kalo da ilham nk wat esei...
xpon edu la kot...wat mind map...

hmm...tiba2...ng tpkir sal clas smlm...
what is  your favourite musician?
apa eh...cz ng xda la y mnat sgt...
ng prefers thai songs...kalo diberi plhn la...
lagu malay, indo atau bi...blehla...
tp ng xminat sgt...
ng selective...
ng minat lg y mcm hdup ng...
mcm aisheteru, standing in the eyes of the world, baik-baik sayang, aku bukan untukmu, simbiosis n bnyk lg...ng ska dngar lagu...wink2...
kalo lagu thai...nk ng listkn...
bnyk kah...
tp apa2 pn...ng ska lgu nyanyian punch n senorita...
bes...ng ska kah...

tiba2...ng tingat lgu ni la plak...baik2 syng...
pg nieh 2 3 kali dh ng dngr...
ng ska kah...

sebenarnya...ng teringtkn phi...
duhai hati...
dhla nh...
ng dh promise kn...
xnk gney lg...
snyumla nh ng...bsemangat la nh...

sbb perjalanan hdup ini sgt jauh...
dan kita tidak tahu apa y akan blaku nty...
hdup ini juga pnuh ngan ketidakpastian...
kita impikan...kita hrpkn...itu ini...
namun...kita sbgi msia hnya saja merancang...
Tuhan y menentukan segala-galanya...
that why...ng nk bpegang pd kta2 phi...
jlnkn tugas kita sbgai pelajar sbaik mungkin...
jd ank y baik untk ibu bapa kita...
dan busaha untk menjadikan antara y terbek...
dan antra y terbek jdlah y paling baik....

bbalik pd lagu baik2 syng...
ng ska part nieh...
chorus...

Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupmu
Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu
Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu
Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu

Semua keinginan akan aku lakukan
Sekuat semampuku sayang
Karna bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengarkan aku

semua keinginan akan aku lakukan...sekuat semampuku sayang...
ng ska y nieh...
cz yela...kalo kita syng sapa2...
ng means...other than kekasih...x semstinya kekasih...
kita akan mampu mlakukan apa2 shja...
dan berusaha untk diirnya...

sma gk ngn khdpn kita kn...
kita mestyla syng famili kita...
kwn2...
dan syng sume sorng...

kerna hdup ini bkn untk membenci...
bkn untk mbls dendam...
tp hdup ini...andai kita bbuat sesama org lain...
ng yakin...org len jgk akan buat baik pd kita...
hari ini...kita busaha...nescaya...lmbt laun kejayaan akn mhampiri kita...
hari ini kita bkorban atau melakukan sesuatu untk org y kita sayangi...
ng yakin...sume ini ada blsnya...
kita syng sume org...
dan org len akan syng dri kita jugak...
wlupn kita tahu bhwa lam dnia ni...xsume org suka kita...
tp kita nk begitu k?
persoalannya d sini...

k la nh...ng nk wat assignment literasi bhasa kah...
sawaddikah...

ng hopes everyone has a nice day...

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Oh No...

dear sweet corner...
wink2...entri kali nieh...
ng nk jdkn peringatan supaya ng xmamai lg next time...

ng pn xtahu...apa mood ng skrng...
cmpur aduk sudah...
perasaan malu...
of course....
sgt memalukan....

kisahnya begini...
ritwo...b4 ng tdo...ng gtau phi...
ng kta...ng tekad nk gerak phi keja...
phi g keja koi 6 pg rite...?
that means...ng kena gerak phi around 5.15 or 5.30...
dptla phi bsiap2...n then takes breakfast...
kn phi??

tp belakangan nieh...ng slalu ja lewat bgn...
dlu bkn men...
koi 5.45 dh bgn...
dh mandi...then.."smbng tdo blik..."
ngeee

skunk nieh...ngee...koi 6.30 xpn koi 6.45...bru bgn...
malah kdng2 koi 7....
ng pn xtahu knapa...atau ng dh kuat tdo skunk...
ewww...malasnya ng...hehe...

back to the story....
pg tu...jam koi 5.45....ng kol phi...
ng dhla msa tu...separa sedar...separa x...
y pastinya...msa ckp hp...mata still lg pejam...n then...
ng asa ng a little bit mamai...

ng asa...btoi dh ng tekan no phi...
tp ntah...knapa sora pompuan...
dngr2 sora pompuan tros ng tbgn...
mula2...ng pkir...eh...pompuan mna ni...
mulanya ng jeles...
ng "kc"...wink2...
tp...pd msa y sma...ng tpkir gk...atau ng slap no...
ng tgk2...btoila no phi...tp sapa akat...

lma gk ng tdiam...smbil two pkir...
mayb akak kot...
nvm la...mgkin xda pe2 kn...

nsb x mcm slalu...
hehe...kalo x...malu bngat...
nsib ng x tadaaa phi...n then...
da la...rahsia...
hehe...

ng ckp..."phi sudah g keja.."
"...yup...sudah pergi...tp dia tertinggal hp dkat umah.."
"ooo...kah..."

pastu ng diam...hehe...sebenarnya...ckp pn...mta ng pejam...ngntok sgt...

"ada apa2 hal dengan phi..."
"kah...kah...ng sja kah...ng ingatkn phi blom g keja..."
"bru ja pergi...ada apa2 hal...?'

wuuu...sound tegas kn...tp msa two ng xpkir papa lg...
ng asa...biasala kot...akak kn ckgu...jd suara...biasala  nada agk tegas...
tp ni tegas sgt...akak ke ni?...smpat g kn ng bermonolog...

pastwo ng xingt dh apa lg y ng ckp...
hopefully ng xckp y bukan2...

n then...ng msg phi...msa tu phi dh blik dr kerja...
ng gtau phi...kta ng kol phi pg td...ng nk gerak...tp phi sdh g keja...n then xbwk si zylo...
hehe....zylo...ng namakn hp phi zylo...
ada2 je kn ng ni...

"phi kah...pg td ng ckp ngn sapa kah?...ngn akak atau mama..."

"phi kata pg td...mama y akat..."

"mama akat...nh matila ng...that means ng ckp ngn mama...phi ng nk wat gena kah...pg td ntah apa2 y ng ckp...ng dhla mamai msa tu,...ckp hp...mata pn pejam...xmampu nk bkak...ng ngntok..tp ng nk kol phi...gerak phi g keja...phi tngai hp kt mana? mama kta apa...?"

ng panik sudah...yela...mama tu...ng pn xtahu knapa ng tkot sgt ngn mama phi....dlu smpi tbwa2 mimpi...ng mimpi mama...tros ng tbgn dr tdo...dahsyat kn...

cz...bg ng...ng ntah smpi ke x 10% drpd mama...ngn ilmu di dada nieh...y xseberapa...dan bnyk2 kemahirn lg...y ng xdpt kuasai..jahit?masak...terutamanya...cz ng pompuan kn...tp sume tu...ntahla...
bnyk lg y ng perlu pelajari...bnyk lg y haros ng kuasai...
ng tkot...kna reject...

tp apa2 pn...ng jnji kah...jd y terbek untuk dri ng...untk parents ng...untk abg dan adik2...
dan ng nk jd y plng bek untuk phi dan famili phi...
ng usaha tkat y ng mampu nah....

phi..on the other hand tenang...

"phi wa...xaih..mama xkn rejects...mama xkta apa2 sgt...mama kta sora ng slow...n then...mama tgor phi...mama kta...kcian ng...cz kna gerak phi pg2..."

"ng ikhlas kah...ng hepy dpt gerak phi...lgpon phi xsoh...ng sndri y nk...ng minx maaf kah...cz ng...phi kna mama tegor..."

"xpa kap...biasala tu..."

"mama phi sgt tegas..."

"kap..."

"phi kah...ng tkot kah...first time ng ckp ngn mama...aduhai...kalo la ng tahu kta mama...mesti ng..."

phi gelak ng...huh...jahat...xpa2..

"mama bkenan dh.."

ng tkjot phi kta mama bkenan...dhla mama kta sora ng slow...msa tu...ng pkir..kalo mama kta sora ng slow...gena ng nk jd cikgu nty...tkot kah...nada sora mama tegas...wlupn ng xpenah jumpa mama lg...tp ng dpt sense kah...ng tahu mama phi tegas...lg2...mama penolong kanan kn...skul men lak tu...mestyla tegas...lg 1...mama mesty fluent bi...dh mama ajar skul convent...ng nieh...oh...no...bi ng 100m...lintang pukang...i'm sorry...my english is broken...

"mana phi tahu kta mama berkenan...memadai2 aje phi ckp...mama xkta begitu pn..."

"papa gtau phi...kta mama bkenan..."

no komen...tp deep...miss small heart hepy...ntah...bila mama n papa ckp sal ng...ng hepy...begitu gk...bila mak n ayah ng tnya sal phi...ng hepy kah...

ngeee...malu ng...tu la...mamai lg len kali...
apa2 pn...ng jdkn...ia 1 pengajaran bg dri ng...ingtkn dri ng...

sekian aje nah coretan kali ni...

ng sayang sume...