sawaddikah...






Monday, July 16, 2012

Misunderstanding...


sawaddikah...

ng nk start gena ek...?hmmm mcm ni la noh...dr a smpi z...rney...pg2 pn ng dh bad mood dh...tension...yola...ng bgn koi 7.20 n then nk g mandi...tup2...rambai xda air...oh no....how come...dhla pg td ng “ko”....mslh btoi pompuan...3 ari sdh gney...n again ng xdpt tdo...n then, bgn2...air lak xda...pagi2...dh tension..

pg2...pjuk dri...ok...ng tries tenang...n then g nona...mandi...nsb la rney just da tutorial ja...koi 9...xla ng kalut2 kn...then...blik2...ng wat mind map untk edu...b4 blik...at least ng does something...xla asa msa tbuang kn...then koi 12.30 ng kuar dr ipg...ng teringn nk beli pizza...so ng g qb...sorng2...tahu?punya la lma ng tngu bus...nek2 kna usik ngn pak cik drebar bus...pak cik tu kta...x g qb...ng wa...kn g qb bus ni...pak cik tu kta queenbays...ok fine...long form...dh la kna dri...amai sgt org...malangnya rney...da2 je...

smpi2 qb...ng jln2 kt bwh...bhgn food...ingtkn nk g border...tp tkot lewat blik umah lak...so...ng lilau2...n then ng ingt btoila kot ni...kdai y kwn ng beli pizza dlu...eh...msa ng order kn...knapa ek...hrga xsma...nvm la...dh ng order kn...3 spicy chicken n 1 diavola...msa total up...sumenya RM 55.60...wink2...something wrong sdh...nsb duit kt purse da td...hehe...msa tu ng pkir knapa eh...?oo...mayb rney full price kot...bkn half...nsb ng beli y 7inch...kalo ng beli y 9inch...asanya lbk krng seratus...xpala...mayb ritwo...da special price kot...dh la ng xbesa g lg...n then rney lak...ng sorng2 ja...

then...msa siap...ng msok lam jusco...jln2 kt sna...ng ingtkn nk beli sushi...cz adik ng y drjh 5 tu dia meme suka sushi...len kali ja la...cz,,,famili...dia ja y ska...org len xsgt...ng lgla...xmam tros...

pastwo...tahu???...ng jmpa kdai pizza y kwn ng mksdkn...huhu...msa tu sgtla upset...yola...dh y ng dh beli ni rm 13.90 each...then 4...so times 4...y kt kdai nieh...rm 4.99 till 6.99...hrga around tu jak...my heart is broken...hehe...overnya ng...yola...tkaku ng...nsb y ng order xsma ngn y firuz beli ritwo...kalo x...lgla ng asa...asa...”kna rebus”...

ng ingtkn ng ok...tp x...muncung sedepa...tros xda mood...tp g kejap ja...pastwo ng ok...ng pjuk dri sebenarnya...xpala...mayb y ni len kan...gpon...ng beli untk famili, famili bapa saudra n datok ngn nenek...sumenya 32 slices...ok la tu kn...

n then...crita xtmt di sini...msa blik ng letih2...xda tenaga...yela...lg2 blkngn nieh ng losts appetite...ng mkn ckit ja...msa blik...nek bus...peningnya...ng tetdo...then...ng kol mak...soh mak pesan ayh jemput ng kt shahab...ng xok rney...lbh bek ayh jemput kn??...then..ng tdo...msa nk smpi...ng hntq msg kt mak kta ng smpi koi 5.20....

tapi...no response...mak xbls msg...msa nk dkat2 smpi ng kol lg...kol mak...adik kta...ayh g keja...mak g keja...xda sapa kt umah...abng pn keja...n then adk y f5 pn xda....

sdhnya ng...msa tu...ng pkir...confirm...mak n ayh lupa...keja2...sibuk ngn keja...merajok sdh ng...yela...cz msa cuti sem ritwo ayh ngn mak sibuk sgt...almost xda msa...that’s why ng kta cuti sem ritwo...sgt membosankn....cz...ng mcm alone ja...sorng2 kt umah...bila ng blik...mak tnya...knapa ngn ng??...ng kta...ayh ngn mak keja je...ikotkn ati...mahu saja ng luahkn apa y tbuku di ati...hinggakn one day...ng kta...mak ngn ayh...jgnla keja sgt...rehat sma...kalo jtoh skit mcm mana...lam ati...”anak...nk mak ngn ayh ada msa bsma anak...”

tu la...pendam lg kn...bila gney...merajok...cz y lama2 pkir lg...smpn lam ati...kn mbebankn perasaan? ng2...hmmm...memalukan...nsb ng dok sorng...n then org len tdo lam bus...xla diorng pasan kta air mata ng menitis...aduhai...sensitif btoi...bila ni ng nk besar??wink2...nsb kejap ja...pastwo ng tries optimis...tp optimis la sgt...

smpi2 kt shahab...ng cri ayah...tp tiada...ada org len je...ng kol lg...kol ayh bntk kali...tp ayah xakat2...pastwo...xdpt dihubungi...ayh xpenah begini...slalu...bila ng kol...ayh akat ja...xpenah ayh xakat...then, ng kol mak...mak xbwk hp...adik y bongsu akat...again ng tnya...mana mak?mana ayh...mana abg??...dia kta sume g keja...sedihnya...pastwo ng kta...”kn akak pesan kt mak soh ayh amik akak dkat shahab...”...”akak pn da msg gk...mak bca x msg akak..?”..”akak kol ayh pn xdpt2...”

adik kta...x...mak xbca msg...ayh g keja...apa lg ng...mau xslh fhm...yola...ng merajok...mrh...sedih...perasaan bcmpor baur...ng asa nk ngs ja...tp ng tahan...malula kt org kalo ngs...kt terminal bus amai org kn...

sebek ja ng letak gagang...tiba2...ng dngar sora ayh...ayah kta...”anak kol sapa td...”
dan saat y memalukan....ng geleng2...tros ngs...malu...ngs xhenti2...smbil tu guna 2 2 tgn seka air mata...mcm bdk2 ja...smbil kta...

“anak...ingatkn ayah xamik anak dkat shahab...”

msa ng ngs,,,cian ayh...dia pn serba slh dh...maafkn ank...ank jnji xnk gney lg...be more matured n avoid childish attitudes..

“anak kol ayah...bnyk kali...tp ayah lngsng xakat...anak kol mak...mak tngai hp...mak g keja...anak tnya adik...adik kta...sume org g keja...termasok ayh...that’s why anak ingtkn mak ngn ayah tlalu sibuk berkerja hinggakn lupa ank...xda msa nk jemput anak...lg2...adik kta...mak xbca pn msg y anak kta ank smpi koi 5.20...mgkin sebab ni...anak slh fhm..”

“xkn la ayah xamik anak...y ayah x akat fon...sebab hp ayah b3 hbs..dan kalo xjmpa anak...ayh ingtkn nk kol guna public...mak xlupa...mak gtau ayh soh smpi sni awai lg...koi 5.15...anak dh lma smpi?...jam brapa skrng?ayah lewat?...”

“tidak...anak pn baru ja smpi...anak ingt nk nek bus sudah...ingatkn mak ngn ayh lupa..”

malunya ng...seriously ng malu...xtahu la...mcm na ng nk usir perangai kebudakn-budakn ni...ckit2 ngs...ng ni...sensitif...lg2 ngn org y plng ng syng lam hdup...

pntng slap ckit...sama da tindkn atau kta2...ati kecil ni...cpat je...tahu kn apa y ng mksdkn...duhai ati...Tuhan...kuatkanlah ati ng...

ng syng mak ngn ayh...lam hdup ni...ng cma da seorng mak...seorng ayh...ng syng mereka...