sawaddikah...
ng nk start gena ek...?hmmm mcm ni la noh...dr a smpi
z...rney...pg2 pn ng dh bad mood dh...tension...yola...ng bgn koi 7.20 n then
nk g mandi...tup2...rambai xda air...oh no....how come...dhla pg td ng
“ko”....mslh btoi pompuan...3 ari sdh gney...n again ng xdpt tdo...n then,
bgn2...air lak xda...pagi2...dh tension..
pg2...pjuk dri...ok...ng tries tenang...n then g
nona...mandi...nsb la rney just da tutorial ja...koi 9...xla ng kalut2
kn...then...blik2...ng wat mind map untk edu...b4 blik...at least ng does
something...xla asa msa tbuang kn...then koi 12.30 ng kuar dr ipg...ng teringn
nk beli pizza...so ng g qb...sorng2...tahu?punya la lma ng tngu bus...nek2 kna
usik ngn pak cik drebar bus...pak cik tu kta...x g qb...ng wa...kn g qb bus
ni...pak cik tu kta queenbays...ok fine...long form...dh la kna dri...amai sgt
org...malangnya rney...da2 je...
smpi2 qb...ng jln2 kt bwh...bhgn food...ingtkn nk g border...tp
tkot lewat blik umah lak...so...ng lilau2...n then ng ingt btoila kot ni...kdai
y kwn ng beli pizza dlu...eh...msa ng order kn...knapa ek...hrga xsma...nvm
la...dh ng order kn...3 spicy chicken n 1 diavola...msa total up...sumenya RM
55.60...wink2...something wrong sdh...nsb duit kt purse da td...hehe...msa tu
ng pkir knapa eh...?oo...mayb rney full price kot...bkn half...nsb ng beli y
7inch...kalo ng beli y 9inch...asanya lbk krng seratus...xpala...mayb
ritwo...da special price kot...dh la ng xbesa g lg...n then rney lak...ng
sorng2 ja...
then...msa siap...ng msok lam jusco...jln2 kt sna...ng ingtkn nk
beli sushi...cz adik ng y drjh 5 tu dia meme suka sushi...len kali ja
la...cz,,,famili...dia ja y ska...org len xsgt...ng lgla...xmam tros...
pastwo...tahu???...ng jmpa kdai pizza y kwn ng
mksdkn...huhu...msa tu sgtla upset...yola...dh y ng dh beli ni rm 13.90 each...then
4...so times 4...y kt kdai nieh...rm 4.99 till 6.99...hrga around tu jak...my
heart is broken...hehe...overnya ng...yola...tkaku ng...nsb y ng order xsma ngn
y firuz beli ritwo...kalo x...lgla ng asa...asa...”kna rebus”...
ng ingtkn ng ok...tp x...muncung sedepa...tros xda mood...tp g
kejap ja...pastwo ng ok...ng pjuk dri sebenarnya...xpala...mayb y ni len
kan...gpon...ng beli untk famili, famili bapa saudra n datok ngn
nenek...sumenya 32 slices...ok la tu kn...
n then...crita xtmt di sini...msa blik ng letih2...xda
tenaga...yela...lg2 blkngn nieh ng losts appetite...ng mkn ckit ja...msa
blik...nek bus...peningnya...ng tetdo...then...ng kol mak...soh mak pesan ayh
jemput ng kt shahab...ng xok rney...lbh bek ayh jemput kn??...then..ng
tdo...msa nk smpi...ng hntq msg kt mak kta ng smpi koi 5.20....
tapi...no response...mak xbls msg...msa nk dkat2 smpi ng kol
lg...kol mak...adik kta...ayh g keja...mak g keja...xda sapa kt umah...abng pn
keja...n then adk y f5 pn xda....
sdhnya ng...msa tu...ng pkir...confirm...mak n ayh
lupa...keja2...sibuk ngn keja...merajok sdh ng...yela...cz msa cuti sem ritwo
ayh ngn mak sibuk sgt...almost xda msa...that’s why ng kta cuti sem ritwo...sgt
membosankn....cz...ng mcm alone ja...sorng2 kt umah...bila ng blik...mak
tnya...knapa ngn ng??...ng kta...ayh ngn mak keja je...ikotkn ati...mahu saja
ng luahkn apa y tbuku di ati...hinggakn one day...ng kta...mak ngn ayh...jgnla
keja sgt...rehat sma...kalo jtoh skit mcm mana...lam ati...”anak...nk mak ngn
ayh ada msa bsma anak...”
tu la...pendam lg kn...bila gney...merajok...cz y lama2 pkir
lg...smpn lam ati...kn mbebankn perasaan? ng2...hmmm...memalukan...nsb ng dok
sorng...n then org len tdo lam bus...xla diorng pasan kta air mata ng
menitis...aduhai...sensitif btoi...bila ni ng nk besar??wink2...nsb kejap
ja...pastwo ng tries optimis...tp optimis la sgt...
smpi2 kt shahab...ng cri ayah...tp tiada...ada org len je...ng
kol lg...kol ayh bntk kali...tp ayah xakat2...pastwo...xdpt dihubungi...ayh
xpenah begini...slalu...bila ng kol...ayh akat ja...xpenah ayh xakat...then, ng
kol mak...mak xbwk hp...adik y bongsu akat...again ng tnya...mana mak?mana
ayh...mana abg??...dia kta sume g keja...sedihnya...pastwo ng kta...”kn akak
pesan kt mak soh ayh amik akak dkat shahab...”...”akak pn da msg gk...mak bca x
msg akak..?”..”akak kol ayh pn xdpt2...”
adik kta...x...mak xbca msg...ayh g keja...apa lg ng...mau xslh
fhm...yola...ng merajok...mrh...sedih...perasaan bcmpor baur...ng asa nk ngs
ja...tp ng tahan...malula kt org kalo ngs...kt terminal bus amai org kn...
sebek ja ng letak gagang...tiba2...ng dngar sora ayh...ayah
kta...”anak kol sapa td...”
dan saat y memalukan....ng geleng2...tros ngs...malu...ngs
xhenti2...smbil tu guna 2 2 tgn seka air mata...mcm bdk2 ja...smbil kta...
“anak...ingatkn ayah xamik anak dkat shahab...”
msa ng ngs,,,cian ayh...dia pn serba slh dh...maafkn ank...ank
jnji xnk gney lg...be more matured n avoid childish attitudes..
“anak kol ayah...bnyk kali...tp ayah lngsng xakat...anak kol
mak...mak tngai hp...mak g keja...anak tnya adik...adik kta...sume org g
keja...termasok ayh...that’s why anak ingtkn mak ngn ayah tlalu sibuk berkerja
hinggakn lupa ank...xda msa nk jemput anak...lg2...adik kta...mak xbca pn msg y
anak kta ank smpi koi 5.20...mgkin sebab ni...anak slh fhm..”
“xkn la ayah xamik anak...y ayah x akat fon...sebab hp ayah b3
hbs..dan kalo xjmpa anak...ayh ingtkn nk kol guna public...mak xlupa...mak gtau
ayh soh smpi sni awai lg...koi 5.15...anak dh lma smpi?...jam brapa skrng?ayah
lewat?...”
“tidak...anak pn baru ja smpi...anak ingt nk nek bus sudah...ingatkn
mak ngn ayh lupa..”
malunya ng...seriously ng malu...xtahu la...mcm na ng nk usir
perangai kebudakn-budakn ni...ckit2 ngs...ng ni...sensitif...lg2 ngn org y plng
ng syng lam hdup...
pntng slap ckit...sama da tindkn atau kta2...ati kecil ni...cpat
je...tahu kn apa y ng mksdkn...duhai ati...Tuhan...kuatkanlah ati ng...
ng syng mak ngn ayh...lam hdup ni...ng cma da seorng
mak...seorng ayh...ng syng mereka...
