sawaddikah...






Monday, April 30, 2012

my prince...

sawaddikah

prince & princess...live together...happily...

bes kn...n ng...like the others...
wait 4 that moment...

stiap org punya impian...
impikn...sesuatu y terbek untk drnya...
begitu jua ng...

kali nieh...ng nk ckp...sal lelaki idaman ng...
ntah da ke x...
kalo ada...mayb 1 in trillion...
dan...alamaknya...
single la ng...

apapn...ng waits for him...
for the loved one...
for the person...who i creates in my imaginations...
n he...is my prince............

tadaaa..

dia itu...mestyla mencintai...menyayangi...dan mengasihi dirnya...
andai dia xmampu mencintai...menyayangi dan mengasihi dirnya...mcm mana die nk mencintai...menyayngi...dan mengasihi org len??

believe in god...
Tuhan...ng believes in god...dan ng hopes he will be too...

love everyone....love famili die...terutamanya parents...
keluarganya...sanak saudara...
love ng...
love friends...n the others...
pendek kta...everyone.....
jd...dunia in...peace no war.....

pegangan agama utuh...
tahu hukum hakam agama...
supaya dpt jd role model kt orng sekeliling...terutamanya ank2...

rajin...dan kemas...
waa...rapa org la y gney....
even...pompuan pn...blik mcm tongkang pecah...
alasn...msh bujang...

knala rajin...kemas...kn??
ng xkesah dia kaya atau miskin...
asalkn die rajin...
bg ng itu y terbek dan paling baik...

berdikari...bertanggungjawab...
mesra...mudah senyum...ng ska senyum...ng pn nk die begitu...
senyum itu indah..kau tersenyum...ku tersenyum...
dunia pn trut tersenyummmm...

sukakan kanak-kanak...
kn nk jd papa nty...

soft hearted...
mudah bersimpati dan empati.....
kerna...bg ng...berat mata y memandang...berat lg y memikul...
jika mampu...lend a hand to help them...

optimis...berbudi pekerti...
berhemah tinggi....
sopan...

romantik....
but...opps...
"action in better than words..."
yay2...tp skali kala nk gk candle light dinner...wink2...

understanding...nie penting...kna la memahami kn...
ng taha ng gena...
ng mudah terguris...pabila org y ng syng misunderstands ng...
xmemahami ng..........
ng nk die memahami ng...
memahami mrs small heart.......

mudah bertolak ansur...agar hubungan ng ngn dia kekal selama-lamanya...
smpi cucu cicit...
smpi ke tua...
smpi bye2 lei.....

penyabar...xmdh melenting...
xpanas baran....
cz...air mata ng cheap...hehe..da ke gtwo??
yola...ng nieh sensitif...
lg2...ngn org y ng syng.............

komited...
n do everything by heart...
by heart..............
everlasting...

ingt ari2 penting...yela...
penting tahu...

slalu luangkn masa bsama ng...
"he is always beside me......."
ngeee...ng xnk la die tlalu workaholic...
perlu luangkn msa untuk famili kah...

prihatin...ska menolong....
hormat mereka y  lebih tua...

beretika...

dr segi pakaian...
xperlula kah style...'bg ng simple is nice....
pki bg kemas...pkaian y bersih...
two penting.....

waaa...bnyk lg...tapi ng ngntok sudah nieh...
okla....ng tdo dlu....

ratrisawat kah....


Sunday, April 29, 2012

Kempunan...

 sawaddikah... Emoticon
camat sore...

maren...wink2...ng kuar ngn little bro...adk ng y form 5...
g mall...tp alamaknya maren...
sume kempunan...
hari kempunan ng...huhu...so....sooooo sad...

ng gtau adk...ng nk bwk motor...
adk ng ok jak..
hehe...tp twola ng...so ganas...
pki skirt bwk motor...
ayh kta biaq btoi...
ng wa iye...n then snyum....

hehe...jgn sngka ng lembut...
ng kasar bha...
bg ng...laki or pompuan...
equal chance...

ng gtau phi...
phi tkot...phi risau...
phi wa nty terbang skirt...
mcm tau2 ja ng bwk laju kn...
ngeee...xla...da teknik kah...
laju tp sopan...
ade ke??...
ooo...persoalan di sini....

Emoticonkempunan...mark2...hingga ng mencebik...
ng gtau adk...i wanna to cry...
nk bakar mall..
nk eeewwww jauh2...


Emoticon majok...pergh!!!

bnyk sgt y ng kempunan...mula2 sal wayang...
ng kuar cz nk ajk adk tgk wayang...pastwo mkn...
tgk2...da cita y xbest jak...
battleship....avengers n so on...
meme la bes...tp bkn taste ng...
cita robot...lawan2....out of list...

so...ng tnya adk gena...dia pn wa...x gk...
yola...dh plan nk tgk cter seram kn...
ng ngn adk gtwo...
ska cita seram...wink2...
cter komedi n love scene pn xda...
kempunan ng...

lapa sudah...
ng ajk adk mkn...
n again...lapa sgt kna tngu...
n then x sdap mcm ritwo...
huhu...pasni tgk la...ng x g dh mkn kt situ...
diskriminasi...
x ikot turn...tp ikut menu...
how come??
ng dislikes...totally unfair...Emoticon

noh...tgk...mcm continuously ja kn...pas 1 satu...
n then ng shops...adk tlng pegang brng...
biasala two kn....
ng surveys harga...as usual...ng nieh jenis teliti...
kita da hak sbg pengguna...
so kna guna hak sebaik mgkin kn...
says no kt brng2 y harga meluap2...
n then...kita da choices...berhak untuk memilih rite....

ng ingt nk beli bju...blouse kuliah...
ng da bkenan 1 two...
tp alahai...ketat la plak...saiz s...slalunya saiz ng la...
tp nieh...ketat...atau ng dh mkin gemuk??
xla...huhu...saiz m xda...tgl 1 ja...
xpala...again...ng kempunan....
xhbs2 kn??

then...ng g tgk bju kurung...
cantik sgt...
n then harga pn cntik...rm 139.00...
sedap je harga....
tp ng berkenan...wawaaa,,,
gpon ng da member card...so da promotion half price...
tng rm 70...
not bad la kn...
kalo beli kain...potong sendiri pn lebh kurang jak....

da sepasang two saiz ng...cantik sgt...
first look tros ng berkenan...
lama ng blik...
n ng amik tries...
seriously cntik...suka...
tp msa pakai...die punya depan...
xcntk...terlalu nieh...ntah gena nk explain...
kalo pki ngn tudung cntik la...
tp ng...mana pki...
ng non muslim...
ng wanna to cry....
kempunan sgt2...sgt2...nk bakar mall...Emoticon

ng tgk y len...da y cntik...tp twola...
kalo ng pki...mesty longgar...
agk besaq kah...
y ng tgk nieh 59.90 ja...
tp leh half price...so xla mhal...
xda kain...
kalo da kain plain ok la kn....
suka gk...tp ng xnk try dh...takot kempunan lg...

ng gtau adk...ng kempunan...
muncung mulut sedepa...
nk ngs ng kta...
tahu...apa adk bls...
die kta...ok...tngu dlu...nty ngs kt umh...skrng jgn...
pergh adk!!

then...ng g tgk kasot...
again...ng berkenan...
sngt cntik...ksot high heel...
very simple but nice...
n then drpd kulit..ng chob...tp saiz plng kecik 36 ja...
two pn sepasang...
ng pki agk longgar...
nk sumbat tisu??
xnk la...xselesa...
aduhai...sedih lg ng...
hari kempunan sedunia....

1 ja xkempunan...
shopping mknan...
ngeee...
tp x bnyk ng beli kali nieh...
ng kna jimat...slalu ja ng overspend cz makanan....
twola ng...kuat mkn...

sedihnya ng...sume ng nk xdapat...
da je y xkena rite....Emoticon

xpala...mayb...
petanda...ngeee...
supaya...ng jimat...spend wisely...
hehe...udah2,,,snyum...
cz ng kempunan...poket ng xkering ritwo...
wink2...Emoticon

tp ape pn...bg ng...
nice saturday...
thanks adik...cz teman akak...
bkn senang ng nk kuar ngn adk ng y form 5 nieh...
ade2 je hal die....
ngeee...nty kita shops lg yar...
tolong akat brng...
love u....sayang adik...Emoticon

sekian aje coretan ng kali nieh...
Emoticon

sawaddikah
















Wednesday, April 25, 2012

bek2 kah khon di

Emoticon 
sawaddikah...salam sejahtera...
rney...ng hepy kah...cz uak dh hbs...so blehla kah ng rehat2...
rhat kejap...lam 2 3 ari...n then study untk final exam...

Emoticon

Smiley
phi kah...maafkn ng nah khon di...
untuk apa2 y tlah blaku kah...

ng xpasti sama da phi akn bca post nieh atau tidak...
tp post nieh ng khas untk phi kah khon di....

Emoticon
sweet corner...blog kita....

msa blalu...bersilih ganti...
mcm2 blaku kn khon di??

kisah tempoh hari...ng msh ingat kah...
segar bugar lam ingatan ng...
dan ng xtahu msa tahu knapa bleh blaku...
mayb cz id kita 2 tinggi kan...

hinggakn phi wa phi mai rak ng...
phi tahu...ati ng totally broken kah...
org y ng cinta...tiba2 bg kta putus...
bkn snang nk trima kah khon di...
ingin ng nafikan...
tp itulah hakikatnya...
tp  kn....ng asa sesuatu...
iyeke dr mlut phi...cz ng kenal phi...
knal phi kah....
phi bkn begitu.....

bila bjauhan...ng ingtkn ng bleh...
i love u...but we can't...
ng loves phi...tp impossible...
mcm bumi ngn langit kan...

ng reflects dri ng...
ng x sesuai lei ngn phi...begitu kerdil ng asanya...
di luar sana...amai lg gdis y jauh lebih bek dr ng...
y setaraf ngn phi...
love needs sacrifice....
andai itu y terbek...ng rela kah wlupn pahit...
phi xpenah pkirkn sume two...
tp bg ng penting kah...

lma ng sedih ati...ng ingtkn ng tabah...
nk lupakan phi...
mkin ng berusaha...mkin mjadi2...
setiap saat...setiap detik antra kita...
xpenah ng lupakan...
honey...hasil karya ng untk phi...
ng hopes phi ska ati...syng honey...

ng sedih...hinggakan ng asa ng can't...
tenat gila keadaan ng msa two...
n then phi wa...kita jd spt dlu...
bkn senang kn...
phi tahu kn apa yg ng mksudkn...

"jgn paksa diri...jgn beri hrpn...andai tidak mampu.....andai dri sndri msh ragu2..."

dan phi on the other hand...as usual...

 at least...ng dpt knai erti cinta...
bg ng sgt unik...

dlu ng xknai phi...
just selisih...tp gena tah...
mrs small hearts kta...that him...
mayb he is not so good...not so perfect...to the others...
but for me....he is a right person...

hinggakan suatu ari ng dpt jumpa phi...
face to face...
amazing...
dkat bookstore...ng ingt lg...xkeruan ng....ngeeeeeeee

ng msh syngkn phi...syng mark2 lei....
smlm akak phi kol ng...
tp ng xsmpat sambut...ng xpasan kah...cz again...si nini lam silent mode....
jd...ng msg akak phi....
n akak tnya ng dpt contact phi mai...

nope...tiada kah...
then...akak kta phi msok hospital maren dlu...n
xdapat nk contact dh...even kwn phi pn....

mula2 ng ingtkn  phi skit...demam ka
eh.....tp xknla smpi msok hosp cz setahu ng kalo dmam cpat2 phi mam ubat...

accident? itu ng pkirkn...dan ati ng xsedap kah...
lantas ng msg2 akak...try call phi...
bnyk kali ng calls...tp no response.........

nsib x seperti y ng pkirkn...
bkn accident...

akak kta dr suspek apendiks...tros ati ng xsdap...
apendiks bhya kn?...bleh bwk maut...
ngah ng study...ng asa ng xdpt nk concentrate...
ng risaukn phi...

n then tiba2...mea ng kol...mea slalu...timing slalu btoi...
itulah...kasih ibu...
bila ng da problems...bila ng asa xtenang...
mea mcm tahu2 ja....
mula2...ng cuba blagak biasa...cuba nk tenang...
sembang2...tp ntahla tiba...
ng pgl mea...n then ng diam lma kah...'
pastwo ng gtau...

"mea, luk xsdap ati lok......phi msok hosp...luk calls dr td tp no response..."
tros ng ngs pastwo...

again...ng cries again....

ntah...slalu aje ng gney...
mea tenangkn ng...mea wa bnykkn bdoa...Tuhan bsma kita...

beep2...msg dr akak...
akak kta dh dpt contact phi...
ng hepy sgt kah...
asa tenang...
pastwo akak soh ng tnya khaba phi...contact phi...tnya keadaan...
mayb akak nk ng ngn phi bek kn...
akhir2...ng ngn phi...ntahla...
mayb i'm not in your shoe...
msing2...

tp...phi xakat pn...
sejujurnya...ng sia chai...tp apalah daya...
siapalah ng kn...
"xpa nh...at least dia dh ok...mayb nk rhat....."

jd...ng msg2 ngn akak...
tiba2...akak tnya ng ngn phi dh ok ke...
ng wa ko...
mcm adu la plak...ngee...

ng gtau akak...kta phi xpki ring dh...
mlh xplok momo sudah...
ng nothing bg dia....

tp akak plik...
dngr jwpn ng...
akak kta...td papa da tnya phi...
papa tnya hbngn ng ngn phi...
phi gtau kt papa kta sdh ok...

ok ka??...ok bg phi...mungkin msh ko bg ng kan..

waa...papa ngn mama concern...
ngn hbngn kita...
tersenyum ng..

xnkla pkir jauh sgt...
gpon status ng ngn phi pelajar kn...
kejar cita2...
gapai impian kita...

Emoticon
"ANDAI ADA JODOH TIDAK AKAN KE MANA.... 
ANDAI NG UNTUK PHI....
SUATU HARI NANTI....
KITA AKAN BERSAMA JUA..."

plng penting...terpenting skali...
blaja dlu kn...
mcm y phi kata...

phi xpki ring cz phi jenis aktif sukan...
mayb phi rimas...
sal momo...phi dh plok...
yea...kna syng momo two...
first look..tros ng bkenan tau...
momo special...

nk smpn kah kapel ring..
nty kalo jumpa...
nk phi pakaikn untk ng...
xpon tngu cincin belah rotan nty...
wawaawaw...
ng...ng...
jauhnya pkir...ngeee...

ok la coretan ng kali nieh...

sawaddikah




Sunday, April 22, 2012

malasnyer...

aduh2...malasnya ng...mls2....huh......
eewww...pergi jauh2 wai mr.mrs lazy....
ng kna study bha...

Thursday, April 19, 2012

o;o...o;o

nong2...
waduh2...twola kah...ng degil n degil...n mark2 lei...
tgk 2 3 ari dh ng pening2 gara2 xikot ckp doktor, pho, mea ngn phi...
bru taw efek die...
n rney ng still lg dgil...
ng mam lagi walhal ng tahu kta xleh...kna kurangkn...
lapa ice cream...lapa coklat....miss100x.......ngeeeee

xsabanya ng...
yea...sok ng nk blik umah...
n then ng nk shopping...
shopping alone...mesty bes...
keliling 1 jitra lei...
mesty kering poket...
ng asa bln nieh ng sgt2 boros...
again...ng overspend....

n then ng xnk inform parents kta blik...
nk wat surprise....
hehe...mcm la mea ngn pho nk surprise...
dh common dh...biasa sgt dh...
cz almost tiap2 weekend lei ng goes back...
syng pho...syng mea....love my famili.....
gpon ng asanya...ng perlukn mereka..........

nty nk uak...
ng nk manage time properly...
n says bye2 to stress kah...
ng tham dai...

chayok2....ng kna top up bi nty...
ng kna do the best...
cz ng xpndai present...n then essay ritwo ntah gena...
so ngn peluang y ada...
ng kna gunakan sebaik mgkin...untk improve dri ng...
ng nk jd ibarat burung y tinggi kah...
bknnya lyng2 pts tali...
ng kna lakukan y terbek...
untk dri ng...untk parents dan sume org y ng cintaio & kasihi.....

U CAN!!!



Monday, April 9, 2012

My Family...

nie...msa cuti ritwo kah...
cuti penggal sem...bln 3...
ng ngn famili join program kah...
program gaya hdup sihat anjuran kementerian kesihatan kah...

ngee...y hepynya...
kiorg bolot hadiah bnyk2 lei...
ng, mea, pho ngn p bau msok pertandingn kah...
100 000 steps...
make u healthy...
ngeee...msa two pas pbs...
ng dpt johan kah untk kategori senior wanita...
dpt hamper besaq...
ngee...i like...
p bau lak...dpt no.3 kah...
kategori lelaki senior....
hamper gk...

dan x ketinggaln daddy ngn mummy tercinta...
hehe...pho ngn mea pn dpt hadiah kah...
dua2 dpt no. lima...
dpt hamper gk....

twola ng usik...
hmm...hmm
mcm kapel ja nieh...
ooowww....
hehe...dh la pho ngn mea dpt no.sma...
rancng ye....
hehe....

pho ngn mea senyum ja...

ari two...ng bahagia sgt2 kah...
bkn senang kn ahli2 lam famili nk join program sebegini...
msng2 sibuk ngn urusan...
namun...mea ngn pho...
xpenah lupa...
mereka beri kasih syng y secukupnya thd ng, abg dan adk2...
ng syng mereka kah...

love u...
mummy and daddy...

rak pho ngn mea kah...
rak mark2...
thisud nai lok lei...
love2....INFINITY

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Planning Today...

gud monink sume...
rney ng kta settlekn keja y bmountain2...
ngee...
so planning ng rney...
siapkn isl...at least 2 la kah...
ptng...draf refleksi...
n then mlm...do some notes...
b4 tdo...highlight sumber bacaan...
cr main point...
rney fpk again...
so so...soooo many things to do...
a lot of works...

skian aje kah...sawaddikah...
have a nice day...
snyum sokmo

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Gud Monink Penang...

sawaddikah..
gud monik penang...
gud monink sume...
have a nice day..
yay2...
smile2 mile2 n yay2 kah...
tuchum2 slalu...ngee...

monink2...monink2...
ngee...tgk cermin...senyum...n say something postitif...
dan hdp anda akn ceria...
waduh2...mcm iklan la plak...ngee

rney...ng bgn ngn semangt baru kah...
azam baru...
ng xnk down kah...
dh 2 ari ng doing nothing...
bad habits kn??
gpon ng x ok...xleh force dri...
ng x sembuh sepenuhnya g...
ingt kisah skit ritwo...
adui2...6 kali ng jmpa doktor...
two pn da temu jnji lg...'ng xnk g dh...
ng syng kuliah...
bnyk cuti bnyk ketinggalan nty...

tup2...teringtkn dr. la plak...
dr sgt bek kah...
thanks dr cz risaukn dri ng dan merawat ng...
ng ingt g perbualn ngn dr tempoh ari...

temu janji 1
"msok wad nh"
"Hah...apa doktr...msok wad?"
"ya...kamu x ok two...tekanan drh pn low"
"xnk doktor" ngee smbil geleng2 ng
kalo gtwo...xpala doktor bg kelonggaran...ngn syarat sok kna dtng lg...bg dr.cek
"sok dtng jumpa dr lg..."
ng angguk ja...tp ng pelik...ng asa ng ok...shat je...tp msa ng cek drh...hmpir kesemua komponen drh ng low kah...tp bil platelets msh lh normal...kira ok la kah...

temu janji 2
pas cek drh...
kali nieh....kadar diastole, systole ng pn xok...mlh denyutan nadi ng per minute pn tinggi...
pastwo ng asa ng ok ja...xskit sdh...
cma bdn ng lemah aje...
tgk2...kdr platelets ng kurang kah...drh ng turun lg...
mlh da komponen maren y normal tros trun...
sume komponen low including white blood cell
msok2...kali ni g jmpa dr len...dr pompuan...dr zikri xduty rney...
jmpa...dr kta...
knapa ni...adui...
drh trun bnyk nieh...
"knapa jd mcm ni doktor"
sya asa sy ok ja...
yela...kamu asa ok...td sebenarnya tidak two...
org sihat xmcm ni...
xpa...rehat bnyk...
sok jumpa dr lagi...
kalo msh trun lg...kita xleh biarkn...
doktor kta tkot drh ng beku gk kah msa two..
bhaya dr kta..
cz nty sistem imun ng lemah...

temu janji 3...
kali nieh...ng jmpa dr.zikri...dr muda...
again...
dan results drh pn low2 sume...
platelets ng krng lg...
doktor tgk2...pn geleng2 dh...
kdr diastole systole pn memg xnormal dh...
"dr wa...msok wad kah..."
"ng wa ng xnak"
"degil"
"saya xnk doktor...sya xska dok wad"
"kt umah minum air x...rehat x"
"minum...sya rehat dr..."
"dr x expect results kuar gney"
lam hati...ng monolog..."ng pn...ng skit apa sebenarnya...knapa ng asa lmah sgt..."
ikot ckp dr...dr nk wat surat msok wad...
supaya dr dpt pantau kmu...lihat keadaan kamu...
biarkn gney bhaya...
nty platelets trun jd 5o gena...
xbleh gney...
dr. risaukan kamu....

ng tpaku kah...msa dr kta dr risaukn ng...
ng angguk lemah...ng kta tp kn dr..
sy xnk dok wad...sya asa sya lebih selesa kt umh...
tp..."dok sini dr leh lihat keadaan kamu...cek kamu..."
sya ok dr...sy xskit pe pn...
kamu asa ok...tp tidak...
org sihat xgney tau...
mana da org shat kdr sys ngn dia mcm ni...
pastwo...wtc pn low...
htc pn low...

knapa htc saya low dr...sume komponen low...
sya skit apa dr...
sya asa sya shat ja dr...
btoi sy shat dr...

dr kta bdn ng lemah skrng...

hmm...knapa platelets sya trun...
apa fktor2nya...
dan apa kesannya dr...

jangkitan apa dr..??
xda apa pn...
seriously sya asa ok...just asa lemah2 bdn...mayb cz sya bru lega dr demam...
xshat sepenuhnya lagi...
itu ja

dr bg mc...
selang 1 hari...nty khamis jmpa dr...

sya xnk dr...sya nk blik mktb...
hmm...kalo khamis sya xjmpa dr bleh?
sya asa sya xnk...
"kena jmpa dr...kna jmpa.."
"tp dh bnyk ari sya cuti ni..."
"dr bg mc..."
"sya nk blik maktb"
"xska ka dr bg kmu rehat...kt umh...mlh ngn famili lg"
"kamu perlukn rehat"
"tp..."
"jumpa dr lg...untk kebaikn dri kamu..."
"kalo xnk sni...jmpa kt penang pn xpa...
ngn syrt janji ngn dr. kt sma pn kamu cek..."
"nty shat...kalo sudi inform dr..."
"susah dr...kt penang...transport?.."
"kalo gtwo...khamis jmpa dr...kna jnji...
kalo kmu msh x ok...jgn degil...dr xnk dngr apa2 lg...kamu kna gk msok wad..."
.....apa nieh...ng asa lemah gila...ng skit apa...??

blik umh...ng ngs kah...
ntah tiba2..
pastwo mea tnya knapa...
ng kta nothing...
mea kta...mea tahu apa y luk pkirkn...

"mea...kita blik mktb nh ari rabu...ari khamis luk xnk jmpa dr lg"
"nah mea nh..."
"xnk jmpa dr lg? xshat lg mana bleh blik..."
"mea pn xbenarkn..."
"ng asa sdih sgt..mcm bdk kecik toi...ng ngs2 smpi tetdo..."
"pastwo dtok ngn nenek kol ng cz mereka tahu sal kedegilan ng"
"mcm mana nk blik?luk sau dh shat ke?blom lg two..."
"ng diam kah...cz ng tahu dri ng...tp ng kna kuat kn??..."
mcm2 nek ngn atuk pesan...
mereka risaukn ng...
ng syng sgt kah kt atuk ngn nek...

ptng rabu ng blik mktb...parents antq kah...
mea kta...in case ng xlrt...tros gtau...
mak ngn ayh amik ng blik...
ng pn snyum ja kah...
ng kna kuat dna buktikn pd sume org kta ng shat...

adui...ngee...cter pnjng lebat toi...
k la...ng nk breakfast n wat apa y ng dh plan...

...siapkn semua isl fpk....
do some notes...lengkapkn nota2

taaaataaaaa



Life Love Laugh

ng sdh pkir sedalam dalamnya...
pkir tkat y ng mampu...
pkir pros n cons...

ng btoi2 x fhm ngn phi...
phi totally was changed...
bkn shari dua ng knai phi...bersama phi...
tp sdh 4 taun...
sma da phi sedar atau tidak...

ng xtahu...x tahu dan x tahu...

belakangan nieh ng pkir sal phi ja...
smpikn ng asa ng stress...
pnat ng pkir...
pkir sorng...'ng nk bncng...tp x nk...
ckp dr ati ke ati...
apala nk ego sgt kah??

ng asa ng xwat pe2 pn...
tup2...tiba2 ntah mood apa phi...
tahu la kah...phi busy ngn projek...
tp jgnla smpi tara two...
"tlalu workaholic kah thirak...
take a break pls..."
kita nieh bkn alone...tp da org sekeliling...
think twice n think carefully

ng tahu phi mudah minx maaf...
mdh tolak ansur...
tp hal nieh...
apa y tjadi??
that why ng tnya...siapa y berubah?
ng atau phi?
atau kedua-duanya...
ng tahu apa y blaku dan akn blaku kah...
pls phi...jgn ignores lg kah...
phi pn tahu dri phi...
begitu gk dri ng...
knapa x trima hakikat kah...
apa2 jua...ng sedia wlupn pahit...

phi pn tahu ng gena kn...
bg ng action is better than word...
dont repeat it again...
itu prinsip ng...
phi pn tahu apa sikap...kendiri ng...

dan xperlu minx maaf ng...'kerna tiada apa2 y hendak dimaafkn...
ng xmrh ngn apa2 y phi wat...
cuma ng terkilan...
mcm nothing ja ng...
ng x tahu d mana org y ng knai...
y ng tahu nie bkn dri phi...
ng tahu dri phi...
tp ni bukan kah...

andai susah sgt kn...
biarlah kita berjauhan seketika...
supaya kita dpt tahu samada kita slng memerlukn ataupn tidak...

ng nk terbek untk kita...
kerna phi persis abg ng...kekasih ng...teman ng..
phi bleh jd sume untk ng...
ng hormat dan syng phi kah...

wlu tiada lagi...izinkn ng menyayngi dri phi slama-lamanya kah...
dan ng xpinta untk phi mengasihi dri ng lagi...
kerna ng xska dipaksa...
jd kita xbleh memaksa sesiapa...
melainkn dia sendri y ikhlas melakukannya....

andai...
kita sudah tidak sehaluan lg...
slowly kita ptus kah phi...
agar phi ngn ng dpt bersedia dr segi mental dan fizikal kah...
dan ng harap perkara nieh parents kita xtahu...

lgpon mcm y kita ktakan...
win2 situation...
ng xleh pinta apa2 drpd phi...
dan phi pn janji xkn pinta apa2 drpd ng...

bg ng...ini menunjukkan bkn kita lg...
tp kamu saya...
begitu asing kah khon di...
tp itu y blaku kn...

sejujurnya...ng rindukan phi y dlu2...
xtahu g mana sudah...
y ada skrg ntah siapa...
seseorng y ng xkenali...
ng mcm nothing ja bg phi...
tp phi everything bg ng....

nothing vs everything=impossible...
mgkin kita xda jodoh kah...

di sini...ng nk phi wat keputusan kah khon di...
apa2 kptsn...ng trima kah...

nty...secepat mgkin ng akn post barng2 kt u kah...
kembalikan pd phi......

mulai saat ini...ng nk tabah...
ng janji pd dri...ng xkn ngs lagi...
ng tekad...
ng xnk jtoh...ng bgn...
kejar impian ng...cita2 ng...
dan ng doakn y terbek untk phi...
moga phi berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat...
"satuk"
- ng rak phi kah-

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~story of my life~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~life love laugh~~~~~`


Friday, April 6, 2012

Kadang-kadang kita berasa

sawaddikah...
waduh...skrg...ng xtahu apa y blaku thdp ng...
bnyk perkara y ng pkirkn...
hinggakn ng berasa dri ng sgt kerdil...
bagaikn x mampu untk menanganinya...
wlu fizikalnya...ng ok...
tp inner ng...ng perlukn smgt...
wlu ng motivasikn dri...
tp kita tahu dri kita
bnyk y ng pkrkn...
hinggakn ng tnya dri...
why think so hard...
let it go...

ng asa berkecamuk kah...
ng xnk mslh pribadi ng menjejaskn pljrn...
xbleh gtwo kn...
kna pndi handle...

ng xtahu apa y ng perlu wat..
apa y perlu ng ktakn...
ujarkn...
pkirkn pros n cons...
ng asa bslh kah...
ng asa ng xmampu melakuknnya...
cz nty da sekeping ati y sdih...
biar ng sdih xpa..
tp ng xnk org y ng syng sedih...
samada die sedar atau x...
tp ng menyayanginya...
syng ngn cinta lain two...
bg ng...perasaan syng lg agung...
tinggi nilainya...
namun...da certain y slh tafsir...
what should i do??

kdng2 kita berasa...
wlu sesuatu itu hnya perkara kecil shja...
setiap org da persepsi y tersendiri...
tafsiran y berbeza...

mcm2 skrg kn...
mcm nothing..tp everything...
mcm tiada pe2...tp inner feeling sapa la tahu...
kdng2 kita leh optimis...memotivasikn dri...
tp deep2...crying inside...
tiada slhnya kn...trunkn sdkit ego...
ckp...bncng dri ati ke ati...
itu y terbek kah..
luangkn sdikit msa...
kerna ada y menunggu...
nothing vs everything...
msia hanya sedar bila sdh terlambat...
......seribu 1 penyelasan...






Wednesday, April 4, 2012

SK Stowell, BM

murid2 sk stowell...sumenya lelaki...ngee
cikgu nadzri...hehe...alamk...ng wat pe two...ganas btoi...tgk jeng...relaks ja
bdk2 wat bingo maths kah...depa pakat2...menang da hadiah...
tgk dila...eew...hehe...ngah lyn bdk2...dila kco...ngee...lawak je...jgn amik hati
senyum lebar jeng...
waa...lemada..sbr melayan kerenah bdk2...begitu tekun
akt dadu bertuah...ha...tgk book mark...hand made...jimat kos sgt2
bdk2 menyelesaikn bingo maths
perasmian oleh pk...encik jamil

nieh ahli group ng...
thanks le, nadzri ngn jeng...cz bg kerjasama dan sma2 handle akt

Sawaddikah...camat petang sume...
waduh2...lthnya ng...
td ng redo refleksi pkk kah...
cz kebetulan mr.rajoo kasi blik fail kt sume org...
namun...wat2...asa ntah btoi ka x refleksi ng...
so hard ng pkir kah...
smpi blink2 leau...
stars clockwise...miu!!

penat sdh pkir nieh...
apa kta...ng tlis blog kn??
sal program smlm...

3 April 2012...
ng ngn classmates conduct program kt sk stowell kah...
Hari Rekreasi Maths...
nk pgl Magic Square Day pn bleh...
sma aje kah...
wink2...

nieh first time kah...
kitorg wat program kt luaq...

mula2...bnyk smpi kekangan dan halngn...
namun...akhirnya bjln ngn lncr kah...
thanks god...

apa hlngnnya...xnk la ng ceritakn dkat sni kn?
lupakn aje...
ingt perkara y indah...y membahagiakn ckupla kn...
bnyk pkir...nty inner conflict...
bahaya rite??

first...ng nk ucapkn trima kasih kt alicia kah...
penolong s/u ng...
trima kasih bnyk2...
alicia bnyk membantu lam sume hal...
tnpa alicia, xmgkin ng dpt jlnkn semua nieh...
lg2...time ng skit...
alicia wat ketas kerja..wat surat...
handles bnyk perkara...
serba slh ng...
mcm...ng lepas tgn kn??
andai...da slh dan silap di sini...
ng mohon maaf kah...
sejujurnya...alicia lbh layak jd s/u kah....
thanks bnyk2 alicia...
"kami sayang hampa"

amin...zahiri...jeng...
thanks...
thanks kepada sume rkn2...
kerna tnpa sokongn, dorngn dan komitmen drpd korng...
xmgkin Hari Rekreasi Maths dpt bjln ngn lncr...
kn? tima kasih sume...
kpd lecs tercinta...pn faridah dan juga dr.rosmawati...

sk stowell..
skul bndar two...
ngee...
dngr nama pn asa aura dh...
skul murid2 y pandai...
dan diorng memng pandai...
aktif...
bi jd mother tongue diorng...
compare ngn dri ng...
bnyk kekurangn dan kelemahan y perlu ng perbaiki kn?

sk stowell...skul bdk laki...
sume bdk laki...
ptotla msa g...
tiada nmpk bdk pompuan pn...

comey btoi bdk2 sna...talkative n friendly...
pengalamn y xkn ng lupakan...
imbas blik...
mmg berbeza sgt...skul bndr ngn luar bndr...
ptotla...pengaruh persekitran...
sngt mempengaruhi...

thanks le...nadzri ngn jeng...
kerna bnyk memberi kerjasama...
good job...
dpt lima stars lei ng kasi...
star blink2...sgt tough ngn kuat...

akt y group ng wat...
tadaaa...akt bingo maths ngn dadu bertuah kah...
le ngn nadzri handle akt bingo...
ng ngn jeng akt dadu bertuah...

bes kah...lyn kerenah bdk2..
lg2 bila diorang ska dan enjoy akt...
ska btoi ng tgk...
dan ng dapati wjudnya integrasi kah...
melayu, cina, india ngn mixed dok semeja....
sma2 pakatselesaikn mslh maths...
geng x ikot kaum...
bgos kah...
two thumbs up...

funny kah...bdk2...
comey...tembam2...ngee...bes kn kalo dpt cubit pipi...
dan mereka nieh xmalu...
da y cbot pastwo dpt kad ungu..
diorang diberi plhn kah...
sma da nk mrkh 0 or dikenakn denda dan diberi peluang untk baling dadu...
tahu?
apa y mereka plih..
mereka sngup dikenakan denda kah...smata2 nk mrkh...
di stu persaingn y shat wujud kah...
smangt kerjasama...
terhibur ng...
msh tbayng2 lg ng...
ng soh bdk2 menari...
aduhai...mcm2 gaya...
ngee...comey btoi...
soh nyanyi depa nyanyi....
mmg bgos kah...

pnglmn guru y terbek kah...
dan d sni...ng mempelajari bnyk perkara kah...
sbgai sowng guru...knala fleksibel...
dan berani menghadapi cabaran kah...

2 3 hari ng tdo koi 3.30 pg...
namun...bg ng berbaloi kah...
kerna...hasilnya...
y plng pntng kepuasan dri kah...
pelik gk kdng2 ng...
tp two hakikatnya...
ng wat sesuatu...kerna niat ng nk blajar dan blajar...

kepuasan pribadi...
kepuasan ati ng...

biarla org kta apa...
apa persepsi org thdp ng...
tp kalo kita xslh...tiada apa2 y harus dtkotkn kn...
org ada hak untk menilai...
namun, hanya kita y tahu dri kita sebenar...










my Story Mory..

sawaddikah...
lma dh kn..ng x post blog...
miu2...bersawang sudah nieh...

ngee...title kali nieh...story mory lg...
...bnyk story y nk ng kongsikn...
tp ntahla...dpend la noh pd jari jemari ng...
kalo mls taip...skian sajalah....

4 April...hepy bedday kah mea phi...
ng segan nk wish...tkot gk...
ngee...
tp ng ingt kah...dan d sni ng ikhlas kah...

"hepy bedday kah...moga mea phi hepy2 slalu...dikurniakan keshtan y baik...apa2 y mea arapkan...y mea hayati...moga semuanya tercapai kah..."
"suk san wan kerd kah"

life...love...laugh...

td...mea ng calls kah...mea gtau abg accident...
OMG...
ng tnya mea...bila?
mea kata ari ng blik mktb...that means 1 April...
kn two bedday abg...
knapa bleh tjadi?abg ok? ok ka dia?...
panik ng dibuatnya...
btalu2 soaln ng...

mea tagk2 nk inform ng cz belakangn nieh ng busy sgt2...
tp nie penting...sebusy mna pn...kalo hal famili ng kna tahu...pls..

ng cuma da sorng abg...kalo xsyng dia...nk ng syng sapa kah?

wlu ng slalu kta 'p bau' - abg...
ye la...ng slalu kta p bau mr.tiger n then phi mr.lion...
cz 2 2 sgt garng ngn ng...
especially abg ng...
gdoh2...mrh2...tp xlma ng terasa ati...
cz ng tahu p bau syngkn dri ng...
hnya ng...sorng2nya adk pompuan dia...
bgitu jgk ngn dri ng...

lam dunia nieh...ng cuma da sorng abg kandung...
ng syng p bau...

tup2...dpt brita buruk...tros ng xsdap ati...

namun, mea kta...p bau ok...
xda pth2...just lebam2 ngn luka ja...
tp motor...hbs rosak...
dh lngar ngn keta kn...
dngr y mea ceritakn...
agk dahsyat...

trima kasih Tuhan...kerna selamatkn nyawa abg ng...
thanks god...

keyakinan ng hlng kah...
bru2 nieh, bln 3...adk ng accident...
tup2...nieh abg plak...
knapa jd gney yar?

hmm...mgkin takdir kn??
tp bersyukurlah cz selamat...

bg ng...material xpntng kah...
luaran ja y slalunya org pntng...
y org slalu kejarkn...'dan berakhir dengan derita dan penyelasan...
"manusia xpenah puas..."


kalo diimbaskn...p bau bnyk berkorbn untk ng...
kisah tempoh ari "mamat sial"
sakit ati lg ng...
ng xtahu knpa mlt ng begitu lancang...begitu laser...kt mamat two...

dunie nieh bulat...
tp pls...
ng xnk lg...
ng benci lelaki mcm dia...

lam bnyk kslhn & kesilapn...
1 ja ng xdpt maafkn...
ng ckup2 xska org y xjujur dan penipu...

"how come? kdng2 ng xphm knapa perlu bertolak ansur..."

hmpir ngs ng ritwo...ng bengang...ng msok lam keta...berair sudah mata ng...ng xpuas ati

"knapa kita kna btolak ansur...knapa mglah...kita x slh...knapa biarkn org sebegitu ambl kesempatan...."

"pho, mea, p bau...dia tipu...mmg dia tipu...knapa jd begini...luk xnk...ng xnk"

"tros p bau ckp...sbb pkirkn ng.."

"ng terdiam kah...ng wa ng ok...ng xtkot die...knapa biarkn org amik kesempatan..."
kita x slh...

"dia guna taktik kotor..."

"hari nieh kita mangsa, esok lusa sapa lg...org mcm nieh...xknai erti insaf dan kesalahn...wlu diberi ruang dan peluang...batu...ngn ombak...begitulah analoginya....dihakis2 beribu tahun2...msh di situ..."

"tros mea sampuk...y abg wat sdh btoi..."
"mgkin kita ada slh...mgkin msa two da terkena keta dia...jln sesak kn"

"ng wa...tidak...kalo org len...dia blame kita...cannot..."
"sapa y harus diperslhkn"
"terang2 nyata2...die tipu..."

"mea kta; mea x penah ajar ank2 mea gney...knapa berkasar...di mana kesopanan dan kesantunan...kdng2...kita xbleh terllau ikotkn perasaan...kita guna akal dan logik...bukannya perasaan....stiap y berlaku...da bek da buruk...dis ebalik kesenangan ada kesengsaraan, di sebalik kesusahan da hikmah y tersendiri...inilah dunia...inilah kehidupan...luk kena blaja tentang hal ini lg...dunia luar da mcm2 ragam msia...niat itu,,,skr diramal...kita x tahu....

kita xska disamakn dan dibandingkn...
jd jgn smakn dri kita ngn dia...
dia xbek...dia tipu...kita pn nk jd gtwo??
mea caya... Tuhan nmpk apa-apa y blaku...

"knapa mea xtahu kta dia tipu...dia amik kesemptan...kerana mea, pho ngn p bau pkirkn kamu...kalo sejumlah duit two ja...biarlah..."
lgpn mgkin "karma" dlu...

jd mcm abg...gena abg selesaikn mslh??...dr pampasan...y dia nk tuntut beratus2...las2 rm 50 ja....kna mcm two...api jgn disimbah dngn api...

luk di sini...kalo dia dtng sini...apa2kn luk...mea risau...pho risau...abg risau...

"ng ngs masa two...ng wa...ng xtkot...1 sen pn ng xnk kasi"

"dh sayang...msa two mea plok ng...mea dakap ng..."

nh...tgk...ayo...tsedu2 lak ng...

tgkla...kalo xkerna famili...jgn arap ng akn mglh sbb org y sebegitu....


seriously...ng xpenah la kta kt org gney...
tp untk dia...mmg sial...
sgt2...

wlu ng maafkn...namun...xkn ng lupakan...
apa2 y dia buat...ng arap...ng doakn...agr die xwat kt org len...
zero2...jgn wat lg....

kita xska org amik kesempatan kn?jd kita janganlah amik kesempatan kt org...